Yes, cause i’ve done this before. The last girlfirend I had had a kid. We dated for like a year and a half or so and then we broke up. It was kinda weird cause after dating someone and being around their kid for a while it’s like…well she (the girl i was dating) would have never expected me to step into the father roll or anything…cause the kid already had a father and stuff…but there is still a little feeling that you get just…from dating someone with a kid that makes you feel like you should be at least a little bit of a role model/adult or a figure in that child’s life. And when it comes to the point where it is clear that you and the girl that you are dating wouldn’t be happy living the rest of your lives together…(even tho that is fine and I wish you and your child all the best). But when it does come to that point that you have to split..it is a little weird cause you are also sorta leaving the kid too…and it’s an unexpected feeling you have..someone not too far out of college that has never ever wanted to have a child and would rather not get married or anything…to find yourself in a situation where you were somewhat of a role model “father figure” (but not really) in this kids life and now you have to leave and never explain to her why or anything…I mean it’s not really that big of deal.. But it does weigh a little on you…But not that much where it’s that big of a deal I just wanted to let anyone know that might be thinking of dating anyone with a kid that it’s one of those situations that you would never foreseeing yourself in. Your just there, a normal break up…but with the added suckyness of feeling like a guy that just walked out on his family…even though they weren’t really your family.
I think…tonight my friend told me that I need to grow up. And yes I think he is right…I’m defiantly not mature and I defiantly wanted to go out and do mdma tonight…even tho I didn’t…and even tho I never have before but the reason I want to is because I’m desperate as fuck to be part of the alt lit movement and thought it would help me better…connect man…connect….yeah connect.